June 2013 029Well it has been a very long while since I popped over here to this home of my thoughts. Life seems to be a little chaotic, a lot busy and sometimes full of unpredictable things.

Work is good, it is never ever boring, and very fast pace. Changes within the government on healthcare reform, changes in medical treatments and advances in current treatments and medications, it is always an opportunity to learn more new stuff.

Mark and I will occasionally go to Oswego and watch the sun set. It is so darn peaceful up there, and a place to kind of put life in a temporary hold pattern. Sunsets and the time just before them is a favorite time of day for both of us.

It is a time when the world slowly changes yet I feel I can stop.

It is a time to reflect on the day passing behind us, and planning for the day that is yet to be.

It almost feels like no matter what happened- it is a closing of a chapter and an opportunity to start a new chapter- fresh.

It is a time to relax and June 2013 042know that the bed is not too many hours away.

My days are busy, I really love my job, and the people I work with are good people. So all that together makes an environment where a day is something to look forward to doing. Have you ever been in a situation you hated? Boy the day drags, the clock seems like a minute is an hour.

I am so thankful that I have the days that fly by!.However, as the days fly by, that means the years fly by.

Our grand children are growing fast, our 1005886_10201429826646558_1989262251_n[1]little guy Brandon just had pre-k graduation! We were able to get to it, the school had it in the evening.  It was so cool to see how hard the class worked for this.They sang a variety of songs, choreographed, and one with even sign language too.

Wow next year kindergarten.


And this weekend our niece is graduating from high school. Gee whiz… time flies.

But fortunately as time flies, we learn lessons, we learn that things in life do not always have to matter, we learn that life is short, we learn that there is a reason for everything, sometimes it takes a lifetime to try to figure it out.

This weekend is the “Strawberry Moon” as it was referred to in the news article today. Tomorrow it is supposed to be the best night to see it. I can not wait. For somewhere in the child part of my brain, many many year ago, I found comfort in believing those who had died , those who meant something to me, that they could sit on the moon and watch over me. I refuse to let that comfort go. Tomorrow night- I will be watching the moon, waving to my mom, dad, sister and grandparents…. making loving faces to our dogs and cats…. and trying to capture the moment on film. I hope you too can see it….what ever it will look like. Lots of love to all, Mrs Justa alias Cindy


6-25-2012 Syracuse and Oswego NY 004

We must never ever give up. We must never let the evil in the world suck us into a path of negativism We can never let little people , who want to cause us harm, become big people.

The horrors of this week in Massachusetts reminded me about how insensitive people can be.  How can someone come from a tiny baby to a person who has absolutely no respect for human life, no worry about the consequences of their actions, and be spineless enough to do an act like this and than hide.

In the world we live in,563856_10151599873930351_1135931674_n[1] there are so many cameras and monitoring devices, I really hope someone looks at the photos on ( these are from the site) and calls the authorities. Someone has to know who these guys are. These young people are someone’s neighbors, someone’s friend, someone brother, someone’s son.  Someone has to know who they are. They need to come forward-if they did not do it..say so… if they did they need to fess up to their actions….

So many tragedies, so many senseless loss of life , limb, innocence. There is a saying “what goes around, comes around.” They will get theirs…

Everything else in my life seems trivial as I watch the suffering of those who are affected.

Evil affects us all…if we let it…

Rileys bent crate and having the boys over 11-17-12 007Our 4 yrs old grandson was telling me that teacher in pre-K taught the class  what to do if a mean person comes to the school. He talked about where they had to group, and they had to be VERY quiet….

When he was over here last Saturday night, he told me he brought his secret weapon. I asked him what it was, and he pulled out a life guard whistle, he assured me if anyone came to the house he would blow it so loud that the neighbors would hear it.  I tried to comfort him by telling him the Grandma and Grandpa would be here and he was safe. That night as I went to put him in his bed, he asked for the 2 top covers to be left at the foot of the bed. He wanted us to come back in later and pull them up. He said when his daddy works evenings, he has his mom do the same thing. He said that way , if he wakes up at night and his blankets are all on him, he knows he was checked on, he feels safe.

So at 11:30 I tip toed in his room, I raised his covers up, and out of the corner of my eye, on the head of the bed , lay his whistle. JUST IN CASE>>>>>

It saddened me…100_0027.I was thinking that with all the media, all the evil that makes and sells stories… we are taking the innocence and wonder of being a child and tarnished it. I hope that we as a society can find more joy in the goodness of people and not the bad. I think if we were stricter with punishment on people.. a do unto others type punishment..maybe we would see less evil in the end. Someone wants to literally rip apart bodies with a home made explosive device—well when they are caught… attach a similar device to them—so they can not escape… —some one want to shots people—then they should be shot the same way…  someone rapes someone…then they too get raped viciously…

Because locking people up…giving them 3 meals a day…and trying to rehabilitate them…. it is not lessening crime or the level of intensity to it. Lets looks for the good in life.. we have to… Love to all Mrs Justa alias Cindy

100_0027The anticipation of getting a pet is overwhelming at times. Did we get everything we will need? Will she like the food? Will she tell us when she has to go out? Will she listen? Is she a chewer? How long will Imus and the new dog take to accept one another?

Tomorrow we hope we can get her. She was spayed today and they said by around noon she should be all set to come home. 

We met our friends tonight and had dinner. It was kind of weird-our excitement and their not even beginning to comprehend why we would do  this life changing event. They are not pet people.. we are. It is similar to my not liking boating, or having horses.

We all have our interests, our compassions. I try to understand those who really like something that I just look at and say “ What am I missing?”

But it is natural for us to 100_0022prepare for a dog.. my goodness, dogs can be such an intricate part of our lives..and we swore we would never get another..but her story—her smile… she won us over… This is like preparing for a new kid in 24 hrs!. Oh you will have to watch for some photos… her leaving the shelter, her riding in the car..her coming to her new home…

yep—a new little girl in the house. Can not wait!.

Have a great night…. love to all.. it is late—I am going in a zillion directions..and I gotta stop and SLEEP… love to all.. Mrs Justa alias Cindy

Have you ever come across a person that just should not be doing the job they are doing? I mean maybe they are a good worker..but the job they have… just not meeting their mannerisms.. Ya just wanna say… “HELLO__ANYONE IN THERE??”

Tonight we went to our main  grocery store and there was a new cashier there. She was pretty focused on her work, but see this grocery store is a bag you own grocery store, so the cashiers put the rung up  items in your cart and you bag your groceries at a huge counter area after they are through.

She was scanning stuff and I noticed the more she did, that she was dropping the groceries in the cart. It really did not matter what the item was… can, bananas, lettuce… nope they all got equal treatment… swing arm over cart with about a foot clearance above the cart…. –open hand—and plop… GRRRR… the turn the other cheek part of me was ready to stop turning and say something—but than I thought that might increase her distance from the place she held the grocery items to the place they landed.

Now she might be good as a female boxer…. but a cashier at a grocery store –not so much…

Annoyed : Cartoon sulky teenager with folded arms and a scowlThere is a place just up the road from us that changed owners this past summer. It is a gas station with an eatery and it is a  lottery ticket place, has some aisles with some food items for those in a hurry and not worried about paying 3 x the cost in a grocery store… well the people behind the counter—they almost growl when you come up to the register. No eye contact, their movements and mannerisms are as if the customer is bothering them. They are probably late teens early 20s..and man oh man… I just want to say something… Like  “NEWS FLASH>>> without the would not be here!!!” and than slap them a couple times Smile  ( Just kidding about slapping them!)

Amazed : A cartoon dog looking upwards with a look of regret on faceYep…than earlier  today one of the nurses was on the phone with an office that needed an authorization for an MRI for a patient. The nurse reviewed the info and was ready to give the person the authorization number..and she said—“Oh wait a minute..I have to put down my MAGAZINE !!!” Are ya kidding me????? Bet the docs would love to know their employee is reading magazines while working… Oh the list goes on and on….

I am just amazed…. so I am off now to cut one of the bruised bananas up…life goes on… (at least she did not drop the eggs !!!. I was worried she was going to..) Love to all, Mrs Justa alias Cindy  Thanks to free clipart/google images for these images tonight…

Nov 2011 and thanksgiving on old camera 013Teaching children to be responsible…we need to do that. We need to teach children respect. We need to let children know they are loved, but not let them think they are special to the whole world. I remember as Jeff was growing up, I would tell him he was special to me. I taught him how to pick things up, how to take care of his belongings, and how to behave. He grew up knowing he was sometimes acting in a not so favorable behavior- but I never ever told him he was a bad boy. If we do not teach our kids of the world at young ages that YES does not happen every time… and that they can handle NO. That time out happens…. and that you do not always get things the way you want them to be.

We need to take time to get down on the floor and play with the kids, instead of giving them electronic devices, or TVs to dec 201 006consume their days with. Time with our kids, time with our pre teens, time with our youth is not guaranteed. I heard a teen talking to their parent the other day, and the parent said- “I did not know that, why didn’t you tell me”….. the answer was..”because you are always too busy. I did not want to bother you” AS I heard this exchange in the store… I realized this is probably more the norm than any of us want to admit.

As I am exposed to people in different 100_0161settings, I run across people who lack respect for others, people who think the world owes them a living, who have absolutely no compassion for others..we-as parents, as grandparents, as mentors—we need to help one child or youth  at a time to understand the world revolves-but not because they are on it.

It is a fine line between letting a child know they are loved, and having a child expect everyone to love them. For those kids that grow up expecting everyone to love them..they are headed towards ridicule and heart ache. It just does not happen that way. Kids need to know about the free things in life… about time spent with others is worth more than the video game…

I look at the country, I listen to NO_BAMA talking… and I hear and see a major entitlement syndrome. 100_6263There is an expectation that we should get out of the way for the privileged believing ones to go by. Let’s all work together to help to make the world we live in , one of gratitude..and not expectations….. : one of pride..and not of greed: one of prosperity..and not one of poverty.

Together we can move the mountain..

singly—we can be filled with regret and disappointment as the mountain stays put.

Do your part…. let’s all do something every day. love Mrs Justa..alias Cindy

We should  not complain about life—it is what we make it – when we are dealt different cards. There is no guarantee how life will turn out, no one ever said it would be easy..and if they did—they were giving you a line of bull… .

I remember after my marriage of 5 yrs just kind of crumbled— it has become fresh to me as I was looking through a photo album looking for a picture of Jeff. He was 2 1/2 when we broke up… and all of the sudden it was him and me .. on our own…. I went from a stay at home mom a single mom. I found a job… found an apartment… found a day care… and had no idea how my 10,000.00 a yr job would get us through it ..but I was darn determined to be strong for him. Jeff no longer had a mom and dad in the same home… and his mom was not with him 24 /7 …but we made each day the best we could. We ran shallow baths, kept few lights on, read books,  I bought sheets of insulation board and cut them to fit in the window openings- covered them with fabric from the thrift shop…to make them look pleasant on the outside-this saved on heat… we rarely  had meals out.. we kept the heat down and covers up… we walked places… we played with trucks and cars in the apartment.. went to playgrounds… found there is so much to do that is free…. we learned it was not what you had—but who you had in your life that mattered….

selling Easter candy for Day care 001This is a picture of him at the grocery store by our apartment. He has a fund raiser for day care- selling Easter Candy—the store let us set up shop outside—I had a TV tray, a cheap folding chair, a cloth for his table..we made a make shift sign and he decided his stuffed bunny rabbit would bring him luck.. He sold all his candy—his smile never stopped… that was the one thing about this little guy—no matter what obstacles we faced—his smile and belly laugh kept me going. I truly believe the whole break up—the enduring the challenges—it made us both stronger…

My little boy is going toJeff's 3rd b day opening gifts 001 be 30 soon..this photo is of his 3rd birthday… he would smile like each gift was a million bucks… money was so tight—I got him what I could.. but he never felt he was getting cheated—he treasured every single thing… he would laugh, a big broad smile and say a BIG AWW thank you each time he received something.

I am so thankful for all the time I have had with him… he was why I did not just run away when the marriage failed… he was what made me keep plugging forward… I truly feel that because of the marriage break up- the time we had together was appreciated more-it was quality time… I never would have met Mark or Adrianne if it had not gone in this direction..never would have gone into nursing school when Jeff started kindergarten, never would be where I am now in life –if it had not been for the incredible problems and pain along the way….

Someone long ago said something to be when I asked “How could God let this happen?” The scenario was we- as kids are sometimes told by our parents to do things… we do not know why.. sometimes in the back of our minds we think our parents are off not know anything… we totally do not understand why they asked us to do something.. or what they see in the future. Just the same is the scenario of God and all of us are his children. This person said that when things happen that we just do not understand –we feel betrayed-lost- maybe even question God… but then years later—maybe a lifetime later— we look back and see there was something in that time that resulted in something else. Jeff 3 yrs old in the air 001They also said—we are not ever going to understand God—we are not God. Faith … I have to have faith….

Faith … trusting that you will be caught when you feel tossed in the air of life…knowing His hands are not far away…

… Faith

I personally can go over many times in my life that when I was going through the pain, the loss, the total lack of anything making sense..when I hurt so bad I wondered at  if God forgot me…How could God let that happen … and as I look back—all the instances resulted in something that made me stronger—built character—taught me how to endure—reminded me that I need to accept whatever comes along as another step in my life. I need to remember to see what I can do with it….and realize that I am not the parent …. I am one of the children…to know that doors will close—and not let one opening pass by…

Love to all.. Mrs Justa.. alias Cindy

I can not believe how silly and foolish the GOP candidates are being. I am not sure who is funding whose attacks against the candidates. It is rather odd that anytime someone other than Romney is in the possible lead—than that person is personally attacked. We have some STRONG candidates, yet this petty bull crap is a total waste of time and money.

My goodness guys…Sept sky fog 011 stand tall and let the American people know what you want to do to turn this incredible frightening situation  we are in, and try to get us on track again.

I salute people who put everything aside and try to become president. Especially in this time, with the media so much  on the left- that they hide the problems of today. The attacks , the vendettas, the misdirection, the blah blah blahs…. .

I believe as a united country, if we stop all this momentum before it spins out of control, that we can work to stabilize us. But it will take compromise, determination, and staying away from the money printing and China’s money. We need a president who will wear his BIG BOY pants and be a president , a leader…. and not continually—( all thru the presidency_  be acting like he is still campaigning.

All the petty stuff, does not matterSept sky fog 002 – let’s rally together and let the potential voters of America clearly see what is being proposed by the GOPs. Don’t the GOPs see that No-bama and his cronies are sitting there just watching the GOPS spend money hand over fist- to mud sling.

Focus guys, show why YOU would be a great president….

Because there are a few of you who would !. Make US proud…. there are plenty of people in the country looking for something better….looking for the USA to stand for a united country….

Love to all… be strong. Mrs Justa alias Cindy

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